Forgot to say, if anyone even reads this thing, I made a new account about a month ago that I've been writing in.
Its basicly exactly the same. Same name, its just got an 'x' in front of it.

I'm not deleting this one cause, well, its got some good memories in it that I dont wanna delete, but I dont want them on my new one cause I want a fresh start, you know?

So yeah, if you want to still read what I'm up to, head over to xcancerlife (I'd put a linky thing, but I dont know how).

Day eight of holidays.

Damn Telstra callers. Which part of 'in a few hours' dont you understand?

Day seven of holidays.

I want a guy like Jess Mariarno.

A hate-the-world rebel 'guy' who moves to a small town and is captivated by a quiet yet intreaging girl, me. After a year and a whole lot of trouble (from his end) and denying (from mine), we would finally become a couple untill the I finish highschool, and he gets kicked out of home and skips town with out telling me. A year later, I would finish my first year in university (which isnt going to happen) and on a date with my married ex boyfriend who I am still pineing over, guy would appear at my dorm room after reading a self help book on love and a convosation with his 'family', get into a fight with married ex who I would tell to leave, and guy would ask me to run away with him. I, ofcourse, would realise my love for him and say yes, where we would run to New York and live happily together.

God, how I want that.

Day six of holidays.

Amanda came over today, for a few hours. We diddnt do much, she saw the Gilmore Girls DVD cases on the loungeroom floor and sugested that we watch that, so we did. Well, I did. She played Nentendo Pups and Pokemon: Pearl on my DS most of the time.

Season 4 is quite boring. I'm sick on Rory in Yale, and Loralie has all money problems with the inn, its very boring. Properly brings back Jess, not just random episodes with him, and I will be happy.

Besides that, we have a clingy rat. I dont think we have ever had such a cliny rat before. I think he might be clingy because he's so sick. He has heart problems, and a mouth absis. We cant do anything about the heart except give him medecation, but we can remove the absis through surgery. Though the surgery might mess with his heart, and he might not make it. Its really a loose/loose situation. Dads going to take him to the vet tomorrow to see what to do. He might have to be put down. I think he knows his time is running out, so he's being cuddly. I cried earlier.

I'm update tomorrow on the sutuation. Right now I'm going to talk to my wife and read Jess fanfiction.

Day four or holidays.

One of my neightbours is learning the clarinet.
Aughh.

Day three of holidays.
~ first weekend of holidays.

Accomplishments:
- Watched entire season of Dexter, twice.
- Watched the Flinstones movie, twice.
- Watched two seasons of Gilmore Girls.
- Washed clothing.
- Ate two packets of Zappo's.
- Wet dogs down because of heat.
- Many hours on myspace.
- Many hours on gaiaonline.
- Many hours on gaiaonline zOMG game.
- Midday wakings.
- 2 o'clock bedtimes.
- Alot of texting.
- Alot of snacking.
- Alot of foxtel.

So it is Friday. I ment to post yesterday, but didn't end up coming home for long.

I'll start form the start. I ended up working on my art folder all thursday night, and finally got to bed at 12.30. I woke up at 7.00 and went back to sleep for awhile cause I had to wait for a shower before I could get going. I finally got going at 8.00 and took my folder straight to the art room cause it was seriously heavy. Since it was the last day of school and there were still exams on, noone was really at school, and I couldnt find my first class so I ended up hanging with my friend Karina untill lunch. After lunch, I had cooking. I knew I was going to be the only one in class, so I invited Karina to cook with me, and we picked up my friend Laura too. Cooked, went to multimedia and lunch came. We decieded to go to the shops instead of our next class and left at 1.00.

On our way to the shops, my phone battery deicided to almost die, so we swung by my house for half an hour so I could charge it abit and headed onwards. We got about three streets when a van stopped infront of us and some guys began calling us. Three girls in uniforms with sunnies and bags walking on their own, a recipe for distaster. We took another root and made it to the shops.

We shopped for afew hours, then Karena left us for work. Me and Laura wondered around for awhile, then sat down for about an hour while I began texting my friend, Amanda. I has made arrangements with Amanda earlier in the week to go latenight shopping with her, but my phone was dying, and she couldnt find a way to the shops. Laura has made plans for her friends Nicole to be sleeping over, but found out she couldnt, so I asked if I could instead. Our parents said yes, and we went snack shopping. We had to figure out a excuse so that Amanda wouldnt be angry at me all night because of the sleep over and the whole 5 hours of preshopping I had done. The excuse was: I went home after school, and Laura and Karina went straight to the shops. I went to the shops to buy credit, but couldnt be bothered to change from my uniform. When I got to the shops, I found Laura and Karina and decided to hang around awhile. Then Karina went to work and Laura was waiting for Nicole.

 By this time, it was 4. Amanda finally found a way to the shops by 5, and the excuse was working. We began our latenight shopping, Laura still  with us because 'Nicole couldnt sleepover' and I had 'asked'. We shopped, grabbed some shirts, make up and glasses. We're such losers. We made a pact that each of us would buy some if we all wore them. I ended up being the only one wearing them throughout the whole night. They suit me, I got alot of head turns. At about 7.00, we picked up our friend Chloe and went outside so Amanda could have a smoke. Rebel, I know. I'm trying to get her to quit. Me and Laura were running on a garden wall, Laura was infront of me so I diddnt see the weird wooden chair that came out of nowhere. I tried to jump off the wall at the last second and ended up stumbling and grazed my right arm. Its okay now. I actually forgot about it untill just now. Chloe left after that, Laura located her mum and asked if she could take Amanda home, and let me grab some stuff.

I grabbed my stuff in record speed, dropped Amanda off and went to Laura's. We made cupcakes whil her family went to bed, then stayed up for awhile and played Super Mario on her Wii. Very hard. Had a Coke, got tired, went to Laura's bedroom and went to bed. Diddnt actually get to sleep for awhile because Laura decided to put on a dvd. "Do you want a movie or to sleep?"  "Dont care much." "Okay then, do you want a scary movie?" "I'd prefer not." "Sixth sense?" "That gives me nightmares." We settles on a gay movie with Linsy Lohan. It got boring, so I surgested Dexter. Ofcourse, me being me, was intregued by a phyco serial killer. I got through an ep and a half before I fell asleep, only to wake up to the last few minutes of the third and last episode. Laura re-started the disk about 3 times during the night and once in the morning.

I woke up at 10, and watched the second and third episode while Laura texted. I finally convinced her to put on the next disk, or I would go insane. She made me do it. Then I began to starve, because we didnt get dinner. It took her awhile to get her to feed me. A very long while. She went and got me noodles and we played our DS for awhile. Laura's dad came home from work to get something (everyone was at work/school), it turned out to be a chainsaw. He actually came into the room with it on and reved it. He's a strange man. He left, I went back to Dexter while Laura went on the internet. I told her I was bored, and we got another Coke and sat with her dogs for awhile. She's got two Boxers. I got totally covered in hair. We went inside after about an hour, and played her PS3. A game called Little Big World. Very strange, very fun. They're like little voodo dolls or something. You get to decorate them, mine was a zebra with a red cape. I was mega cool. We died so many times, then it got to 1.30 and we decided to get changed cause Laura had work at 3, and her mum was gonna get us at 2. We still had 20 minutes to kill, so we continued playing.

We drove to the shops, and me and Laura went for McDonalds. I convinced her into buying me a sunday and a water, while she had nuggets, chips and a frozen coke. It has just occured to me how much boring detail I've put into this thing. We finished Macca's, went walking, she went into work and I walked home. I got home, my dad called me to see if I wanted a lift. I said I'd only just walked in the door, so no. He got home 10 minutes later when I was trying begining to watch Dexter. I borrowed it from Laura. He sat down and watched it with me for about 3 hours, my sister came home somewhere through out that period too.

It is currently 1.24 am on Saturday, I am mega tired and wearing my glasses. They seem to stop me from getting headaches. Cool. Maybe I should get my eyes checked. I'll post a picture of me wearing them later. Laura took a really good one of the three of us wearing them. Wait, no. I took it, I was holding the camara so we could all get in. But Laura has the photo.

Anyways. Not much has happened in that few hour gap. I did some chores, watched some proper tv and have been writing this. Also texting my friend Tim. He thinks they're cute on me. Lol.

Night/Morning.

Hmm, so when I said I was gonna post everyday, appentently I lied. Yeahh, sorry about that.
I mean, its not like I ment to not post every single day for almost a year... It just sorta happened.
And now I'm going to say it again. I am going to post every day now, or atleast on a regular basis from now on.

So, its been almost a year since I last posted. Whats been going on? Well, hmm lets see.
Tomorrow is my last day for this year, which is ironic because my last post was the day before my first day of school. Strange isnt it?
Over the past year I have; made alot of new friends, lost some friends, lost contact with old friends, found love, lost love, found the same love and then lost it again, been asked out acouple of times, turned most of them down, found lots of music and bands and worked my ass off at school.

Okay, maybe I lied about the last bit. I diddnt work my ass off, I was abit lazy and I tend to procrastinate. Alot. I also get side tracked incredibly easy.

Yes, anyway. Last day of school tomorrow for the year, I've been spending the last 3 days upstairs in my art classroom all day so I can get a good grade on my art folder. Its at a C right now, cause I'm in TEE art which is university grading. Hoepfully its picked up afew marks to a B. Its been quite tiring because I had an exam lastweek on art. I dont know if I passed that. I'm guessing not, but what happens happens. I'm just glad I did the best that I could. I'm almost finished my folder by the way, and its due in tomorrow. I havent finished two final pieces, but one is sitting in my kitchen drying, and the other one we wernt given much time on.

Oh well. I'll tell you how I go tomorrow. Definatly tomorrow.

School starts Monday.
: /

My dad thinks I'm depressed.
Maybe I am.
I honestly dont know anymore.

I cant remember true happyness.

Today today today, what happened today.

My parents forced me out of bed like everyday, though today they threatened ice. Not a happy camper.
I recieved text messages from three people today, and one continued to bug me throughout the day.
I watched tv as usual, ducked in for a shower just as my parents came home from shopping and roamed the house for awhile, while I was on the oh-so-wonderfull Gaia.

Miss Bug decieded to continue, and I finally caved to go to the shops. Stuck around for afew hours, untill the shops closed and walked home. My family had gone to a friends house, so I was home alone untill my sister was dropped home.
Thats about it.

So now , day number one of everyday writing. Harrah.

Didnt do much like usual. Stayed up late like usual lastnight, so I slept in like usual. Father woke me up at like 12.30, and I hate waking up. Believe me, I am not a morning person. So anyway, got up grouchly and went to the lounge room.
Dad was flicking through the Foxtel channels for something interesting to watch when I spotted a movie mum was watching lastnight before we turned it to Moonlight, my new favourite show. The movie was Elizibethtown or something. At that point, my sister had ventured out and decieded to watch it too. So my mother found the three of us watching the movie she wanted to watch at 3.00, all in our pjs.

Mother told us to grab a shower and she'd take me grocery shopping to pick out haircolours. I told her after my shower that I diddnt need/want to go shopping because I'd picked the colours I want, black with blonde streaks. And finally after 20 minutes of her trying to persuade me to go with them so it could be a 'family outing', mother, father and sister left me alone in the house and ventured to the shops. Ahh, I love being home alone. I can do anything I want when I'm home alone.

After a few minutes of flicking through the Foxtel channels again, I spotted a movie I had never seen. Superman Returns.
Me, being a slight comicbook nerd at heart, though I dont own a single comicbook at all, became wrapped in the wonderfull world of Superman.

My family came back about 2 hours through the movie and made me help get the groceries, which happened to be two bags, and miss five very important minutes of the movie. The movie eventually finished, which I might add is quite good movie, and I channel surfed but untill a new movie was found, Cadet Kelly. Watched that through dinner, and ended up finding a lizard crawling the house. After the movie, I returned to my room  to find the lizard had ventured to the other side of the house and into my sisters room, and then into mine. My mother and I eventually chased the lizard to the front door and outside. Which leads to this moment in time now.

Nothing much more to add. Just another day in the boring world of me.

Well, yeah. I'm sorry I haven't been on in ages, I guess I sorta forgot about this place. Not my fault. Okay, so it is, but I really didn't mean to.

So, now, whats been happening... Hmm, I'm on school holidays right now. Yay for Aussie's.
Been on Gaiaonline nearly everyday. Man I love that site. I'm caught hook line and sinker for that site. Ahh well.

I didn't do too bad in school this year, I mean, worse than normal but not my worst. Which I guess is good cause I really do suck at school. I cant ever pay attention anymore, miss my friends mostly. I always get flooded with memories every single fucking day. I hate it. Sometimes I just want to switch my brain off so I stop thinking about Queensland. Garrh.

Hell, I miss everything about that place, summer, winter, the temperature drops and how it could be raining for five days straight and then suddenly stop. The grass, the air, the people, the places, how busy the city was, or how it could be absolutely dead in a matter of seconds. It seems here in Karratha everything is dead, lifeless, hot, its the worst place in the world for me. I'd give anything in the world just to go back. I've told my mother this many times, she doesnt seem to care. 

I got two weeks early off school so I could go back for three weeks. Really the whole point of me going was so I could see my friends and family, but I also convinced my parents to let me see My Chemical Romance. The concert was fucking amazing.

I'll start from the begining of my trip.

Okay, so I got on the plane on a tuesday while all of my friends were at school, I diddnt even go on the monday cause I didn't see a point in going. Dad took me to the shops to get some things I needed, like a new toothbrush, BLUNT mag and some mentos so I could chew something to get my ears to pop and I threw them in my MCR bag. Man I love mentos. Anyway, dad took me to the airport and we had to wait 45 minutes till I could actually board which was okay cause I got to talk to my dad for while. Finally we got the call to board, but it took about 10 minutes in the line to check tickets and stuff [cause you know, the airport isnt fancy and doesnt have ticket scanners so you've gotta tick them off one by one.] and got to board the plane at 12.15. I got an isle to myself, which was cool, and I took the window seat even though there wasnt much to see except clouds but I didn't care. We sat there for about 10 minutes so they could run throught all the precortions and stuff, and when they finished those we still sat there, Turns out there was a fault or something with one of the engines and they couldnt go untill they fixed it, so we were sitting there for half an hour before we could take off. I wasnt really paying attention at that point cause I just wanted to get going and I'd already read most of my BLUNT mag, chewed half a pack of mentos and was listening to my mp3 player.

We finally got to go, and they threw on a movie that decieded that it didnt want to work, so they put on another movie that was ment to be about boxing, but turned out to be the Simpson movie. They found the boxing movie after about 10 minutes of the Simpsons and decieded that they'd play the Simpsons movie after the boxing movie cause they'd still have time. Damn 5 hour flights. I diddnt watch the boxing movie, thought it was too boring, and accidently fell asleep. Woke up about an hour later to eat the served lunch [salads and ham, blehh] and fell afleep again for another hour and a half [I'd say anyway, no clocks around] and they were starting the Simpsons movie so I decieded to watch that. Got served bikky's about halfway through the movie and then finally landed at 6.35 Queensland time. I found my aunt and got my suitcase, jumped into the car and finally after two hours of driving from Brisbane we got to my wonderful home of the sunshine coast. I never knew I missed the place so much, I remember everything about it, and when we passed the turn off to my old house, I thought I was gonna cry. I guess it was the thought of being near my friends, knowing they were 10 minutes away from where we were at that moment. But we kept going for another half an hour untill we pulled up in my Grandmothers house where my sister was staying too.

Fastforward acouple of days [my sister worked most of the time I was there] and we get to the MCR concert. Which I will tell you about later cause I'm so fucking tired.

So tonight I saw the latest Harry Potter movie with 3 of my friends, and one of my friends boyfriends. It was origenally gonna be me and Laura, but then she invited her new boyfriend Quinnten, and then he wanted to have a double date, but since I dont have a boyfriend cause I'm just blah, we ended up inviting another friend Amanda, so she was my "date". And when me and Laura turned up at the cinima, we found another friend of ours, Karina.
But anyway, I'll try and start from the begining.

This afternoon after school, me, Laura and another friend Brooke (who was sappossed to be going to the movies with us but wasnt allowed to) started walking to the shops untill Brooke decieded to use my phone to ring her dad and find out she wasnt allowed to go to the shops or the movies, so she started walking to the bus area while me and Laura walked to my house so I could drop off my bag at my house (thats the good thing about living where I am, 15 minute walk to the shops!!...and 5 to school, but hey, I walk slow.) and go shopping for a new outfit for Laura to wear to the movies.
My Bob, wasnt that exciting...
Laura: "Is this good?"
Me: "Yes Laura, its fine."
Laura: "Aww no, I dont like that one, plus I have that one at home. What about this one?"
Me: "Laura, how many times have your worn half the items in your closet before?"
Laura: "Umm...once?"

I'v been shopping with her a couple of times, so I guess I'm getting use to it...
Anyway, we walked around for about 3 hours untill she finally bought a new shirt and mini shorts. I actually like the shirt...

Then we walked to mums work for me to get some money for the movies off mum, and walked back to the shops to get Laura to buy me 2 BLUNT magazines, and a DOLLY mag for her. She also bought me a hotdog and vanilla thickshake earlier. She got out $100 and she was down to $15. Haha. And then we walked back to my house and go on MSN so we could try and get in contact with Amanda to see if she was still my date for the movies. She found a way.

So then mum drove me and Laura to the cinima around 6, and there we found Karina. Me and Laura went in and paid for our tickets, and we waited for Amanda and Quinnten to turn up. After about 5 minutes they did and I ended up paying for Amanda's ticket so now she ows me $11 that she's gonna give me tomorrow.

There actually wasnt that many people there.
Me, Amanda and Karina sat in one row, thrid last row I think, with Laura and Quinnten behind us.

The movie was alright. Some parts went abit fast, like at the start with the Dementors, and the fight with Voldimort. I didnt even realise that Serious had died untill everything went quiet and Harry was staring at him for about 10 seconds. Probebly cause Laura was being silly and poking her arm between the chairs.

Oh well.

Oh, and I'v stopped 4 people from killing themselves since I'v been here. Here's a convosation I had with Brook earlier today about her ex-boyfriend who has decieded to go out with another one of our friends, Chloe.
Brooke: "I wanna kill myself."
Me:"No."
Brooke: "But I hate my life."
Me:"No."
Brooke: "But there's nothing to live for!"
Me:"No."
Brooke: "But-"
Me:"No."
Brooke: "Fine."
Me:"Good."

They all seem very similar...

I swear couples in our group just switch. See, Laura was going out with a guy called Caraden, but they broke up lastweek, and Laura started going out with Quinnten who's just broken up with Eryne 2 days before. Eryne isnt with anyone yet. Chloe was going out with Caradens older brother Jarren before they broke up and now Chloe is going out with Brooke's ex, Daniel.
Gee-sus.

In other news, I need new shoe laces.
Ohh, and on Friday my science class gets to dycect hearts (we dycected lamb shanks lastweek.)

Anyway, Fenacle was 2 weeks ago, I'm gonna get around to writing about that cause it was awsome, and lastweek I slept over my friends house, Eryne, for her birthday party, and I also saw a totally awsome magicion.
I'll get around to writing them when its not 10.40 at night and I'm sugar high on mentos and nerds...

So...
Not much has been happening latley.
Holidays are over, so I'm back at school. Alright subjects I guess. I'v still got sport, which sucks, but atleast I dont have it 5 lessons a week now. 3 lessons now.
But atleast I'v got some stuff I like.
And it seems I'v got all the new teachers. Finally got a perminant maths teacher that noone likes, a new science teacher that know nothing about science and heaps about sport, and a new s&e teacher that is a total bitch.
Oh well. I just dont wanna go to the catholic school.

I havent been doing much art recently.
At the moment I'm just doodling, aside from a picture of Gerard Way that I'm doing for my friend as a late birthday present.
I told her it was gonna be finished by today, but its not.
Haha, walked into school thismorning and she ran up to me and asked
"So, where's my Gee Way picture?"
"...shit..."
Guess I'll get working on it soon.

And...
I'm getting my hair dyed again in about...15 minutes.
I'll take some pictures when its done...and when we get the camara some new batteries...

felicity (say fe-liss-i-tee) noun
1. a) happiness. b) something causing this.
2. a) an aptness of manner or style. b) an instance of this.
WORD FAMILY: felicitous, adjective, apt.

I am in the dictionary!!
Haha!!

Is it possible to be really sad, but very happy at the same time?

[If half of this doesnt make sense, its 3 am and I'v just spend 4 hours watching 30 Seconds To Mars host Rage. [[They have some truely creepy/strange taste in music ()_().]] And I'm still partly awake [[music helps [[Creature Feature XDDD]], and the fact that I am extreamly hungry.]]] 

I might be going back to Caloundra for Christmas. XDD.
I probebly wont be going to The Taste Of Chaos tour. Noooo, I wanna see The Used!!!!
My mum just bought this bag for me.
I miss my friends.
School holidays!!
New classes!! No more 5 lessons of sport a week!!
Still old classes. S&E, and 1 lesson of sport.
I need a job.
My sister is coming to visit on Wednesday!!
My parents are trying to get me to go to the catholic school.
I got a tablet for my birthday.
My last birthday present still hasnt arrived!!
 I found this.

Blah.